For my Angel on her Sixteenth Birthday…
Most of the time, when you ask a child what they want to be when they grow up, they say something like a doctor, a policeman, ect. All I ever wanted to be was a wife and a mom. I was lucky enough to find a man who wanted to make me a wife right out of high school.
After 5 years of trying to have a baby, it seemed like my dream of becoming a mom would never come true. Then…it happened. For a moment, after I saw that the test was positive, I thought I was dreaming. Once I pinched myself a couple of times and realized that I was very much awake, I went to tell Bry. I could barely walk I was so excited. All I could do was fall into his arms and cry. For a second he didn’t know if they were sad or happy tears. Eventually, I got it out and he and I just held each other and cried.
For 9 months I did everything I could to keep her safe in my belly. It was amazing. I even smiled while I was puking! I was also terrified that I would lose her. It just felt too good to be true!
Then, my little miracle came into this world. Even then, she was quiet and chill. So much so that we thought she wasn’t breathing right at first! But nope, my baby was just perfect.
I have soaked up every moment of her life. We have been best buddies from the start. She never went through a difficult stage, no terrible twos for her. I never left her. Ever. Not because I was overprotective (even tho I am) but it was mostly because I was afraid of missing anything.
My little girl loved all the same things that I did. Disney, shopping, family and Britney Spears. As she got older, we only got closer. The day I had to leave her at preschool, I sat in the hallway and cried for a ridiculously long time. We both survived tho.
She was the center of attention for 5 years before we were surprised with 2 more munchkins. You would think that there would be a period when she was jealous or had a hard time adjusting but it didn’t happen. I’ve never seen a child fall so in love with their siblings even before they were born. She became a little mom to them, always wanting to protect them and take care of them.
Now that she’s older, we are so much more than mother and child. She is my best friend. We talk about everything, laugh at the same stuff. Most of the time we don’t even have to talk. She knows what I’m thinking before I say it and vice versa.
She didn’t get her brains from me tho. That definitely came from her daddy! She is so smart. She’s artistic and kind and thoughtful. She is soft hearted and shy, SO shy.
Soon, she will have to go out into the world on her own. I know she will be fine. Not so sure about me!
I am so proud of my girl. I have thanked God for her everyday for 16 years.
Thank you my angel. You made my dream come true.